Today is the 47th day, making six weeks and five days of the Omer. Openness within Divine Presence: Hod Sh'b Shechina / Humility in Nobility: Hod of Malchut.
Here I wrote "Hod Sh'b Yesod" (whoops, wrong week), crossed out "Yesod" and wrote "Shechina". In the smaller handwriting I wrote "OK - mistakes happen. I am tiring of counting. Ready for Shavuos. Confusing that this week's sefirot is sometimes shown as Shechina and sometimes as Malchut." I also noted Rabbi Yael Levy's thought for this day: "The Mystery is revealed through patience."
Patience seems to be a big part of this Omer counting practice - and of life. Maury died on September 25, 2012, and yesterday was the first time I was able to write anything at all about saying Kaddish for him. Netzach of Malchut helped. All I had been able to do previously was make a memory box for him, called "Kaddish for Maury":
Last night's program was so special. He would have loved it, it was right up his alley. I missed being able to pick up the phone and tell him about it. I miss laughing together...
My Omer counting journal has been single sided now for a few days, so that there would be enough pages to make it through to the end. I spaced it so it would just make it. The end is in sight.
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